Should I expect to feel this way all through my taper?

Hi, everyone. I’ve shared I did my first taper Sept 2. My second taper failed and burned. Don’t get me wrong. I have great days. Great moments. Then I have today where I feel like my body and brain are missing something. I push myself. In between tasks on the bad days I take a break here and there. We live in a rural area, so I ride our four wheeler on our property, husband takes walks with me. Most times I can read, keep my focus. It’s not easy. It’s a struggle. Since the Ativan 6 week fiasco I haven’t driven. My husband drives me. I’m just now getting to where the sensory overload isn’t so bad. I so want to start my next taper in first week of Oct. What’s stable really feel like? Is it feeling like crap, but your okay? I feel like this is a nightmarish roll coaster and I want off. Rather be on a kiddy ride!! I know my tapers must be much less. Kinda went gung ho without realizing. I mean I didn’t think it would be this hard. I’ve not been on the Valium that long. So am I tapering from 6 years of Klonopin, and the 6 weeks of Ativan? Or do we just call it a day and say I’m tapering from Valium? Just one of those bad days. Blessings to everyone. 🌼