Bear Hunt!!! Paroxetine survivor...Trigger warning.... I wish there were more Paroxetine warriors...

Struggling with your taper...Keep going...you got this...I am still here, and I am tapering the worst of the worst.... Sometimes it helps me to pull my head in and see others that are worse off...If this helps you, then keep reading... I have labelled this journey after the kid's nursery rhyme..."We're going on a bear hunt" I have looked at the links provided to me by Peers on this site....I have watched Utube videos, I have read countless reddit posts... I cannot find anyone who has stopped Paroxetine after 25 years. The couple I found suffered years of suicidal ideation. The ones who got off were on for few years or less. I did find one guy on reddit. HIs exact words..."if I knew how hard coming off Paroxetine would be...I would have shot up meth". Extreme?... YES...Truthful? YES...It is that bad... Another guy I found said it was "worse than coming off heroine"...Extreme? NO... Truthful? YES... Why are these comparisons made? There is help for people stopping illicit drugs. There is help for people stopping opioid's...There is no help for Paroxetine withdrawal. There is no benzodiazepine on this planet that will sedate akathisia, no drug to lift you out of anhedonia.... Taking more drugs just kindles your brain more.. The only answer is a mood stabiliser, when you have absolutely had enough....Another med? YES....But, nothing could be worse than paroxetine. I listen to interviews from psychiatrists and pharmacists who have gone through hell coming off other SSRIs...but not Paroxetine... The very foundation this site was made from was from Mark...But he wasn't on Paroxetine. Mark has admitted he even needed a mood stabiliser coming off his medication. My points are these; 1. These peer sites are very important when you are completely without a medical safety net. 2. There are not enough Paroxetine survivors I have found to establish a support network 3. Doctors shrink whenever I mention Paroxetine 4. I am in Australia, and we are very behind in psychiatry 5. There really is no way out...If you have really had enough of withdrawal, the only med is an antipsychotic to help get you through. NO BENZOs 6. MOST IMPORTANT...It's a bear hunt! I tried the other ways... We can't go over it. We can't go under it. We can't go around it...Oh no! We've got to go through it! Every med is hell...but if you haven't been on Paroxetine, you just don't know. I remember when it was given to me 25 years ago it was the 'new' craze of SSRIs doctors were prescribing. It was safe for pregnancy (apparently)...It was strong, and gave an efficacy of remission that GPs loved... 2 weeks after I started, there were news stories in the UK....These were a panic about Paroxetine causing suicide....Doctors were prescribing this medication without knowing how to deprescribe. It wasn't the medication; it was people stopping it. Doctors didn't know... I tried to go every other way out of paroxetine...There is no way out but through it...I didn't stop because I wanted to...I stopped because I had to...If didn't have a condition dumping serotonin my system, I would be only paroxetine for life...I don't care a bit about people taking medication if it gives them a life...I didn't care a bit about taking Paroxetine for the rest of my life, until it nearly killed me... Why did I start? I had a massive PTSD episode (I know now), which triggered anxiety. My GP gave me Paroxetine...In 4 weeks I was better. I believed I had an anxiety disorder...I took it every day for 25 years...30-10mg...I was completely well for 20 years (I thought) ...Then I developed a condition giving me serotonin syndrome consistently....I had to stop! What I have learned? I have PTSD that was never dealt with...Paroxetine supressed that...I have ADHD...Paroxetine supressed that...I am down to 1.2ml Paroxetine...NOTHING IS SUPRESSED...everything undealt with is in full force...Every rejection sensitivity symptom from untreated ADHD is here... SSRIs dampen your sole...I didn't ever think for a second I was anything but myself on Paroxetine...I was wrong. I have a 4 year psych degree...I have spent 20 years working with people suffering complex mental health issues...Now I am the one analysing myself...The self-awareness part of my training has kicked in... Being a mental health professional does not give me immunity...This is why I am saying... Hi, my name is Bec...and I have psychotic and manic symptoms from paroxetine withdrawal, that I can no longer handle alone. It is not my fault; it is not something I have done wrong...I would not be feeling this way if it wasn't for all the medications uneducated doctors have given me.... There is nothing wrong with me.... Doctors broke my brain temporarily.... I will be back...I will get help if it is too much...I will be the first 50-year-old woman to do this...I will be able to help others.. I will never let any doctor give me Paroxetine EVER again!