Worsening after more precise dosing
Been feeling this sense of despair for the last 2 days or so with increased dissociation/derealization and emotional numbing. Everything feels off, my surroundings, nature, enviroment all that. Also libido, numbness and everything connected to that has gone, some of it I did regain In the last weeks slightly, but now gone again😒
Dont know if this is related to me being more consistent with dosing(more presice) or whatever.
For context: I got a new scale that measures 0.01g rather then my basic IKEA scale that measured only by 1g. I’ve used that IKEA scale since january and now that I have a more precise scale, its shows me that every dose since january has fluctuated by 0.2 to almost 1g everyday. That might have affected my progress
I got all my shit dialed in, except excess screen time I think. Diet is 90%+ home cooked very nutritional dense, sunlight in the morning, outdoor walks 2-3x times a day, walk in nature 3-4x times a week, bluelight blockers at night and always asleep before 10pm. Keep working on my beliefs surrounding all this stuff Im going through.
Being almost 3 months into a crash at such a high dosage is still a thing I’ve had a hard time to accept. Both that this is really happening, if its withdrawal and how long this will go on if Im feeling this way at such a high dose. Anyway, we keep pushing!