Hi, I'm WantToHeal

Hey, I am WantToHeal, middle aged male from the USA. My story with psychiatry overall could fill many books, so I will summarize as best as possible. Sadly, I was not given informed consent about Prozac as a minor back in the late 1990s and doctors kept cycling me on different antidepressants until finally around the year 2000 I had my first inpatient hospitalization due to mania. I was labeled bipolar and put on worse meds like Depakote and Zyprexa. I had to cold turkey Zyprexa because it was absolutely the worse. In the mid-2000s I discovered Dr. Peter Breggin's books and the start of the early forums and managed to taper off of 6 psychiatric medications safely. I felt better off all the meds, but I could tell damage was done. After a few years off the meds, I was forced to take meds again and then I was put on permanent disability and lived with my parents. I think I've been in the psych ward in the low double digits now. Things were livable on disability but as family and friends went away and I got older, I really only had my mother. She told me that I would a home there forever. However around 4 years ago, she snapped and threw me out of the place and stole hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of my stuff. I did one final psych ward check in and was discharged on 6 different medications. I eventually got a small apartment and then my mom forced me into my life again about a year later. I'm here because I'm on 4 psychiatric medications (Depakote Sprinkles, Klonopin, Seroquel, Raldesy). I'm severely kindled from all these years of taking dozens of different psych meds. My main issue is severe insomnia hitting me whenever I try to taper. I'm here because I would like to give a super slow taper a final chance. I think that with the advancements in AI and with wearables and implants like Neuralink, sleep can be induced easily which would allow me to realistically give a swap out from psychiatric drugs to the devices. I have vast experience I can bring to the Taper community because of the length of time I've dealt with the psychiatric system and knowing that even my first massive polydrugging, I still managed to come off and how to prevent getting forced back in.