Hi, I'm M999

Im a 19y old (ex-Opioids currently), along various Uppers (occasional abuser of Rilatin and Mdma crystals (adhd diagosis so prescribed) and mainly Benzodiazepines (abused pills and survived 2 overdosis with 2 respiratory depression and both also my heart was long standing still. But i didn’t make it this far with everyday blackouts/withdrawal feeling like ending it and just suffer in bed like ive been staying in everyday for 3 years now i dont have friends only 1 online but im always depressed even on my 70mg Valium/Diazepam daily everyday for every 21 days -5mg and my doctor just quit the place and we called and he said handle it yourself i don’t work there anymore so i need a new prescription in 1 week so i hope amother doctor will understand and prescribe me cause this doc always never knew a single thing about benzos and thats why its so hard cause he never understands it he only reads i have OD’d. (abused mainly alprazolam and RC benzo’s like Bromazolam, and any RC i could get my hands on but i lost every greyweb website and main one’s owners ware arrested so im trying this plan that i am rn.) 70mg Diazepam daily and every 21 days i drop -5mg of Diaz but i keep relapsing taking more and mixing it with all this gabapentin i still have laying) HARD 4Year Long Benzo abuser and trying to taper. 2 the 4 years i added opioids like pills and patches fentanyl, methadone, oxy (all real pure pharma except the 40mgs percs i od’ded on, knowing it was presses for $.) but off it right now for a while.