Thank you for the input, both of you, I appreciate it! Yes, I thought about a longer hold, my longest hold was just 2 months so maybe I should really consider to hold for a few months. I might also get some confidence back if I feel well for some time. Somehow I was scared that long holds will just get my brain more used to the medication but I am scared a lot these days in general.
I saw some video about a taper being possible without too many symptoms if done really slow, but who really knows anything for sure about this, probably no one.
This is crazy.
I am sorry you are having a hard time too @anne noni moss @MamaLa !!