Dark intrusive thoughts

Hey, hope everyone is well! Do people experience dark intrusive thoughts? My biggest thing during this withdrawal/crash are suicidal themed thoughts. They are triggered by the most slightest thing or just pop up. They are just there and cause such an immense anxiety and fear for me. They are completely intrusive and when I was stable at 100mg for 5 years they appeared here and there and always struck me. I developed a fear of them and I have OCD! The fear of them is always an extra fuel for sure and for an OCD sufferer it can latch very hard. What I find hardest now is mainly the physical anxiety, terror and urge they sometimes bring. Also the emotional side😒 They seems to be the part that has the most effect on me by a mile this withdrawal. If they are not there, Im usually quite decent