3rd Effexor Update - Feeling Poor - Mar 2

Interestingly i slept very well and woke up refreshed. Sadly that particular kind of „dark, sometimes confused energy feeling“ in the frontal lobe started in the morning and led to depression and hopelessness, the face gets more rigid and eyebrows descend. I scolded about things angering me. It feels a little like a cornered animal. Trying to use mental models. Could be worse, maybe happens tomorrow. Midday was better, did a good training (it’s only warmup/cardio, curls, dips and benchpress with some push-ups) with a little less weight but the effort leads to anger at the last exercises. Very glad i did it though. Now hopeless about the future and relationships, i will distract myself. My goal would be to not have a crash tomorrow. If i do i will try to intervene with a few drops (mini dose) of Kratom-extract and sit it out. I want to believe these cycles (never had smth like this before SSRI) will reregulate with time so i can continue tapering.