37th Effexor Update - Feeling Okay

Slept over 6 hours the last days, slept earlier then before, great! Have problems with constant ear infection, it’s annoying, aswell as the energy drops in the evening. Practicing the instrument about an hour per day (bought a looper, excited for it), working in the garden, excercising. It feels great getting stronger and gaining a little weight. Struggle points are the feeling of FOMO: likeminded people in person, intimate and emotional closeness, job perspective, money. Need to start an education soon, hard to choose. Also i fear an apprenticeship would break me (early start in the morning, i’m completely out of this, just so glad when i slept well enough - but i think blue collar work has big future), while university jobs seem to get quickly replaced in many professions and i don‘t really see me on campus again. Feeling constantly conflicted about this and what to choose, maybe the main stressfull point every day. Okey but thats not taper related. Thinking about this stuff tells me i‘m well enough again and i should really taper 1 bead again soon. Propably at 25. Juni after a small gig. I‘m a little anxious after the last taper-crash cost me meanwhile more than 4 months with about 2,5 months feeling just really mentally and physically ill. That was harsh but i guess i‘m well enough again now. Gosh i really want to be off the ADs and independent again. Have a good night y‘all!