34th Zyprexa Update - Feeling Very good

Good to hear you're feeling good! Remind me, was sleep an issue for you before you started on Zyprexa?

Well I thought it was...and sometimes it was, for years. The last few years I averaged about 6-6.5h/n, until the beginning of this year when my mindquake hit. I used to think that was a problem, now I realize it was just fine. Then from January through April this year, while having nonstop panic and agitation, I barely slept at all, maybe averaging 0.5-0.75h/n, not sleeping at all for many days, actually having panic attacks right at the onset of sleep. I was getting so weak I had to fight to breathe. Then during some difficult times in my tapering since June, I'd have bad nights, just couldn't sleep. Sometimes it'd cause panic, but I finally learned to quit being afraid of it most of the time. I'm now averaging about 4.75h/n but it's getting steadier. One of the TC articles talks about how getting a bad insomnia night after many good days can cause intense fear - and I've experienced that a few times. Short answer is yes, I had some mild trouble sleeping for years, then I had unbearable panic driven insomnia for 4 months, and now I'm challenged by plain old insomnia most nights, probably zyprexa withdrawal aggravated since fear is mostly under control.