31st Zyprexa Update - Feeling Poor

Well...my third attempt to taper failed. I learned a few things from this experience. The first was that this is a pretty stressful time in my life. My mom is dying as I write this, my husband finished a contract and doesn't have any work lined up, and I have a 14 month old who I need to care for in addition to working. So, maybe it wasn't the right time. The second thing is that I need to work on managing my panic about missing sleep. I destabilized and had strong suicidal urges late in the night. So, even if I need to take a break before starting my taper again, I need to also work on my anxiety and fears about sleep. I hope this post doesn't discourage others but I'm not done yet. I will try again once I feel stable and ready, which hopefully will be soon. But at least I learned more things this time around.