2nd Effexor Update - Feeling Fair

Feeling fair. Have a headache currently. Didn’t sleep much/well. Self medicating using cannabis tbh. I think I’m going to hold my dose for a while longer until I can start sleeping better. It sucks being on so many meds and having so many issues. I feel like any issue/symptom could be caused by virtually anything. It drives me crazy. I get so stuck on what I should change or do differently and looking up things endlessly, I don’t trust my physicians because I keep feeling wronged by their choices of meds and dosages, yet I have shame in myself and wonder if it’s my fault that I can’t convey my thoughts and side-effects to them effectively. This makes me more depressed than I feel like I ever was.