18th Effexor Update - Feeling Fair

Yesterday was good. Today was also good, slept early (a novum for many months now) and felt pretty okey the whole day. Only point is rumination about missing (love)relationship and sexual performance, it‘s just not as before antidepressants and i really experienced the high demands aswell as i have some too and want to be able to live up to it. Trying to use mental models often in the day. I‘m throwing short tantrums but it seems they are _way_ shorter than they have been before, it calms quickly. So all in all it feels like progress. Doing my workout now. Planning some marketing and ideas for my current (family)-business, it’s kind of a sidejob and i decided to expand it, searching what opportunities lay there. There is motivation and not only inner numbness or irritability, i was really missing that. There are so many times you think these feelings are lost forever. So glad to disprove some dark believes by myself every now and then. Could be more execution of tasks throughout the day but i always catch up in the evening, working on better structure. Hope you are all well too, if not, stay strong and on to the next day.