TaperCommunityThe crisis began in 2022 – 2023, emerging from a period of high stress, significant weight loss (110kg), and high caffeine intake. The shift occurred over two days involving cough syrup; the first dose caused a strange sense of being detached from the body, while the second triggered a state of episodic Depersonalization/Derealization (DPDR). By August – December 2023, a prescription of Flupentixol/Melitracen was introduced. Following medical advice to simply quit the medication, a cold-turkey withdrawal ensued, leading to thirty days of total insomnia and a state of constant, extreme DPDR. From December 2023 – Mid-2024, to manage the fallout of the withdrawal through a cocktail of Clonazepam, Amitriptyline, and Chlordiazepoxide, which resulted in chemical coma like sleep and a sharp decline in cognitive function and memory. When Amitriptyline was later swapped for Trifluoperazine and the Clonazepam dose was increased to 2mg, the reaction was immediate and severe. Profound memory loss set in, significant weight gain followed, and the state of health became so fragile that life became entirely house-bound and I had adverse reactions daily from trifluoperazine. A period of stabilization arrived between June 2024 - March 2025. After quitting Trifluoperazine and holding Clonazepam at 1.5mg ( reduced from 2mg ) for six months, a successful water micro-taper brought the dosage down to 1.24mg.During this window,functionality returned (at least that's what I think), driving was possible, sleep was partially restorative, and even caffeine was tolerated again. The weight gained from previous medications was entirely lost. However, a new and terrifying crash occurred in April – May 2025. ( throughout this time i was using the water clonazepam taper using a jar which had a wooden lid ) A single dose of a PPI followed by another PPI and an anticholinergic triggered a collapse characterized by vomiting and orthostatic hypotension. Crucially, this crash rendered the body immediately and profoundly intolerant to caffeine; as a result, a daily caffeine habit had to be quit abruptly (cold-turkey), which introduced a massive new strain to the nervous system. Following this, the 1.24mg of Clonazepam became paradoxical, causing cycles of euphoria and rage, pinpoint pupils, and a feeling of overdose. Only then did the physical symptoms spiral into 10/10 tinnitus, restless legs, severe akathisia, and movement disorders, including dyskinesia, dystonia, and catatonia, TMJ issues (literally everything happened), alongside profound amnesia. June – July 2025, a hospital admission for weakness and diarrhea led to a rapid one-week taper from 1.24mg down to 0mg by the doctors, followed by an immediate reinstatement to 1mg upon discharge by myself. This created a new baseline where movement issues were replaced by a numb/anesthesia/freeze state.This was where I had dissociative amnesia, where only factual recall remained and a complete disconnection from bodily signals like taste and smell, and a sense of living on autopilot felt as if it was being controlled. August – October 2025, this state of profound anesthesia/freeze/numb persisted. The Numbness Dissociative amnesia state only deepened ( throughout this time period I was taking thiamine pills and B vitamins daily until I came back home from an abroad trip in november then I quit the vitamins ). Besides that, my diet was all over the place. November 2025 The baseline throughout this month was marked by minute by minute amnesia and frozen biological functions in the gut and urinary system, and everywhere. Between the months, a strict diet was implemented. Suddenly, reintroducing thiamine pills triggered a panic attack, followed by an emotional release, followed by dumping symptoms. This month I experienced a cycle of frozen functions versus agitation, with rare neurological breakthroughs like a visual memory flash and colorless recall, even as the general baseline remained a blank stare. December 2025 Early in the month,insight blindness (not fully as I was aware but the feeling) and a sensory void became the norm. During the month, an emergency hospital visit for respiratory distress resulted in treatment with steroids and oxygen, leaving behind eye pressure and dysphoria. Nightly clonazepam caused paradoxical reactions ranging from euphoria to suffocating/coma/freeze-like states. Toward the end of the month, the baseline shifted to include cognitive fragmentation. The lack of insight became intense, and sleep hovered at a poor 3-6 hours, occasionally marked by brief colorless memories following flares of GI issues. January 2026 The new year brought an active micro-taper ( this time I started using milk-taper) , with the Clonazepam dose being reduced incrementally throughout the month. This period saw the formal codification of intense DPDR, alongside symptoms of jamais vu, feeling drunk, and foreign thinking. After stressors spiked symptoms to a 9.5/10, the medication became fully stimulatory some nights. Throughout the rest of the month, as the dose was aggressively lowered, the medication began causing insatiable hunger, and by this time gained a lot of weight. In January, I tried colostrum supplement and probiotics until I quit all February 2026: The month began with a continued aggressive taper, dropping the dosage further as the weeks progressed. During the month, Personality Changes was formally added to a baseline alongside interoceptive dissociation and amnesia. A dose reduction triggered an immediate panic attack following the suspension, after which sleep crashed to only two hours and cognitive symptoms like altered thinking and a loss of social filter were grafted onto the daily experience. As the taper continued, GI distress flared, and a distressing new physical symptom emerged: overwhelming urges to move the face, lips, legs, and hands as the medication continues to leave the system. March 2026: from March 15 through March 24, the baseline settled into a highly rigid and repetitive pattern. Cognitive and sensory symptoms remained 9/10, reflecting the persistence of the profound amnesia, DPDR, and sensory void established earlier in the year. In contrast, physical symptoms were consistently logged at a lower, stable baseline of 3/10. A strict, unchanging daily structure was maintained throughout this period. Normal food intake occurred regularly in the early afternoon and late evening, followed by a nightly dose of Clonazepam consistently taken just before midnight. Sleep remained fractured and non-restorative, with morning logs indicating approximately 4 to 5 hours of low-quality sleep, though minor tracking anomalies appeared in the data as the week progressed. April 2026: Through the first thirteen days of the month, the baseline for cognitive and sensory symptoms remained 8/10, while physical symptoms showed a slight shift to a stable 6/10. The nightly protocol of Clonazepam suspension remained consistent, yet its effects became increasingly paradoxical and stimulating. Logs suggested I was stumbling with high stimulation, episodes where breathing felt restricted, and mental flashes that occurred immediately after taking the medication. A pervasive pattern of being simultaneously stimulated and sedated took hold, often manifesting as racing thoughts and a sense of physical agitation. Sleep quality fluctuated wildly between 6-8 hour stretches and 0-2 hour crash on April 5th, ultimately averaging in the 3-5 hour range as the mid month mark approached. May 2026: The month was a stabilization of the taper, with the Clonazepam dosage holding steady at 0.833mg following a microreduction on May 10th. Despite this plateau, the cognitive and sensory baseline remained locked at a severe 8/10 to 9/10, while physical symptoms hovered consistently around 6/10. This period was marked by a desperate attempt to go to dermatology for fungal skin issues, which was met with immediate and violent resistance from the nervous system. On May 17th, an attempted trip to the hospital resulted in a total autonomic collapse midway through a vehicle journey, a severe crash occurred, I experienced air hunger,felt like I was suffocating, and profuse sweating, forcing an immediate retreat midway and mom dragged me back to house quickly. Another attempt on May 20th to reach a dermatology appointment was successful but came at a severe crash. The journey was marked by intense panic attacks and a profound dissociative state where the front of my brain felt non-functional , leaving a sensation of staring into a complete mental abyss. While sleep quality showed rare flashes of Superb 6–8 hour stretches toward the end of the month, the daily experience remained a jarring paradox of being stimulated yet numb. Dietary fluctuations including lapses into junk food and a suspected caffeine induced migraine ( dark chocolate ) on May 24th further complicated the baseline, which ended the month in a state of severe dp/dr and a return to a clean diet June 2026: my baseline stuck at 9/10 for Neuro-Psych and 8/10 for Sensory symptoms. I introduced a daily antifungal cream (for my fungal skin), but my nightly Clonazepam dose immediately proved problematic. On one specific day early on, I noted the suspension tasted sour and numbed my mouth, but overall the nightly dose quickly escalated into paradoxical feelings of being intensely stimulated. I logged into hell. My fragile nervous system was pushed to the absolute brink between June 7th and 8th when a severe cold forced me to go out to the hospital and a clinic. Navigating the streets in a vehicle for a health check up triggered a 10/10 stress sensory nightmare, though I survived. By mid-month, my diet was back to junk. Triggered by staying up for UFC events and external stress over land issues, my protocol devolved into junk food binges, causing a spike across all my symptom categories to a 10/10 maximum. I attempted minor interventions like green tea for caffeine on June 11th and Vitamin D+K on June 14th and 25th, but the nightly medication continued to cause severe reactions. I had x``where I could not breathe properly, felt like I was in psychosis, and experienced profound emotional instability. The month culminated in a terrifying climax on June 28th: despite returning to a clean diet, a massive 1000/1000 panic attack struck at night. I genuinely thought I was losing touch with reality. This forced me into a complete reset day where I halted the antifungal cream. I ended the month with a doctor appointment, feeling absolutely destroyed, calling it quits for a period of radical rest. July 2026: began in the chaotic fallout of my late June collapse. On July 1st, a combination of junk food and caffeine ( again black chocolate ) triggered an autonomic and physical reaction 10/10 diarrhea, trapped gas, and a full night of psychological torture. The first half of the month was marked by intense instability, with my baseline symptoms frequently maxing out at 10/10/10. Further blood draws around July 4th, combined with waking up early for world cup games, severely drained my system. My attempts to stabilize were constantly derailed by dietary lapses, including more junk food, a caffeine dose ( chocolate ) on July 9th that caused weird brain symptoms, and a severe reaction to eating wasabi. By mid-July ,again started Low FODMAP diet to try and regain some control. However, late-night FIFA matches severely disrupted my sleep architecture, triggering panic, intrusive thoughts, and an anxious, euphoric racing head. The nightly Clonazepam dose continued its paradoxical assault, shifting my state into a confusing mix of stimulation, stumbling, and blankness, though surprisingly, I still manage to sleep. A severe morning panic attack with intrusive images hit me on July 21st, and an attempt to add beef to my Low FODMAP diet on July 24th backfired immediately. The month closed with my physical symptom baseline slightly lowered to a 7/10, but my brain felt uncomfortably awake. I was left battling racing thoughts, sudden panic attacks, and a persistent, paradoxical feeling of being simultaneously stimulated and wasted.
Medication & Taper History: Aug 2023 – Dec 2023: Flupentixol (0.5mg) + Melitracen (10mg) Dec 2023: Cold Turkey (CT) off Flupentixol + Melitracen Dec 2023 – Apr 2024: Clonazepam (up to 2mg), Amitriptyline (12.5mg) + Chlordiazepoxide (5mg) Apr 2024 – Jun 2024: Swapped → Trifluoperazine (1mg 1–2x/day; couldn't tolerate 2x/day) + Clonazepam (2mg) Jun 2024: CT Trifluoperazine → Maintained on Clonazepam only Jul 2024 – Dec 2024: HOLD on Clonazepam 1.5mg (Maintained ~6 months) Dec 2024 – Mar 2025: Water Taper (Glass jar / Wooden lid): 1.5mg → 1.24mg Apr 2025: Took 1 dose PPI + Anticholinergic & CT Coffee (same week) → Triggered severe drug setback ( all hell broke loose ), paradoxical reaction & daily reacting at 1.24mg Jun 2025: Hospitalized (Severe diarrhea, vomiting, IV fluids) → Forced Rapid Taper: 1.24mg to 0mg in 1 week Jun 2025: Reinstated Clonazepam at 1.0mg Jul 2025 – Dec 2025: HOLD at 1.0mg (Took B1 & B12 on/off daily until Dec) Jan 2026: 0.945mg (Switched from tablet to whole milk liquid taper Glass jar / Metal cap) Feb: 0.930mg | Mar: 0.875mg | Apr: 0.843mg | May: 0.833mg | Jun: 0.833mg | Jul: 0.831mg | Aug: 0.831mg | Sep: 0.800mg | Oct: Current Status & Protocol: Current Medication: Clonazepam (100ml whole milk : 1mg tablet suspension; 20ml removed) Reductions this month: Supplements: NONE Diet: Low-FODMAP diet
WEEKLY SUMMARY — September 26 – October 2, 2026 DOSAGE TIMING - Clonazepam Dose Time(s): [Consistent ~11:00 PM – 11:40 PM nightly window] NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE - Weekly Breakdown: [Wave (100%)] DIET & INGESTION - Dietary Pattern: [100% Low-FODMAP compliance across 7 days [persistent post-prandial gut paralysis/bloating]] SUPPLEMENTS & OTHER MEDICATIONS - Weekly Intake: [None taken across all 7 days] ACTIVITY & INTERVENTIONS - Weekly Activity & Events: [100% indoor home rest / low-demand PC video games [outliers: plumber visit Tuesday, family medical emergency Wednesday]] INSOMNIA TRACKER - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 4.79 [~1–2 hrs avg latency, ~5.5 hrs avg non-restorative drugged sleep, vivid/distorting dreams] NEUROPSYCHIATRIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.64 [Persistent high OCD, jamais vu, intrusive thoughts, altered self; acute 10/10 panic spike during family emergency] PHYSICAL & AUTONOMIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 7.64 [Locked neck guarding, groin/back itching, paralyzed gut restricting deep breathing; 1 acute allergy flare] COGNITIVE & DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.07 [Profound DP/DR and 24/7 memory wipe; paradoxically preserved procedural/gaming autopilot baseline] SENSORY SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.48 [Severe inner/outer body numbness ("corpse skin"), sensory gating failure when recumbent; acute spikes up to 10/10] Hey everyone, whoever is reading this, I hope you are doing well. I wanted to share a quick update on how things have been going for me this past week. We had an unexpected emergency at home with my grandmother, and the sudden stress caused an intense spike in both my physical and mental symptoms. The shock sent my nervous system into overdrive, leaving me dealing with severe dissociation, panic, and an overwhelming sense of physical and mental exhaustion. Alongside that flare, I have two specific physical symptoms I could really use some community perspective on. First, I have been dealing with a throbbing, heartbeat-like pain in my right molar gum area after meals. Has anyone experienced localized gum or tooth pain like this purely from withdrawal, or is this usually something that needs separate dental attention? Second, regarding some persistent upper back and groin itching following a past fungal diagnosis, I am torn on whether it is safe to actively treat it with topicals right now or if it is wiser to leave it alone while my system is in such a sensitive state. Overall, it has been a chaotic week and I am just doing my best to survive it. My recent reduction of 3.73% last month was clearly too aggressive for my baseline, so I plan to slow down significantly to 2% a month moving forward to give my body a real chance to stabilize. I am taking things one day at a time, hoping to gradually see some glimpses of the old me again.
WEEKLY SUMMARY — September 19 – September 25, 2026 DOSAGE TIMING - Clonazepam Dose Time(s): Consistent ~11:00 PM – 11:40 PM window [100% timing consistency across all 7 days; no missed doses] NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE - Weekly Breakdown: Wave (100%) [sustained active wave state across all 7 days with acute post-prandial and evening surges] DIET & INGESTION - Dietary Pattern: 86% Low-FODMAP compliance [6/7 days strict adherence; 1 day heavy dinner deviation (300g steak, mashed potatoes, spicy rice) triggering severe autonomic panic] SUPPLEMENTS & OTHER MEDICATIONS - Weekly Intake: None taken across all 7 days [0 oral supplements or OTC medications ingested] ACTIVITY & INTERVENTIONS - Weekly Activity & Events: 100% indoor home rest / low-stimulus video games, indoor football drills, and room organization [outliers: navigating bathroom renovation disruptions, power outages, and a severe post-dinner panic episode] INSOMNIA TRACKER - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 4.79 / 10 [Avg latency 1–2 hrs, avg duration ~5.5–6 hrs, non-restorative "drugged" quality, disruptions from heat/power outages] NEUROPSYCHIATRIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.51 / 10 [High baseline severity, persistent OCD loops, Jamais Vu, foreign consciousness, fear of psychosis, acute post-dinner panic] PHYSICAL & AUTONOMIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 7.67 / 10 [Persistent "benzo belly" bloating/gut paralysis, locked "dead block" neck guarding, upper back/groin itching with rashes, acute lower right jaw/molar pain] COGNITIVE & DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.11 / 10 [Severe DP/DR, complete 24/7 and autobiographical amnesia, blank-mind autopilot baseline; procedural memory and gaming/communication paradoxically intact] SENSORY SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.51 / 10 [Global internal/external somatic numbness, corpse-like body feedback, sensory gating dysfunction when recumbent, 10/10 post-dinner airway closure perception spike] Hello everyone, here is my weekly update as we head into October (my fav month). As I mentioned last week, my doctor confirmed my gut issues aren't an emergency, so we are holding off on any medical procedures. I’ve been on the low-FODMAP diet for about 70 days now. Aside from a minor slip-up with some blueberries and an extra meal, I've stuck to it, though I'm skeptical about staying on it for a full three months as advised . My gut alternates between feeling completely paralyzed and severely bloated to the point where it's hard to breathe feels like it , and trying to walk triggers panic specially when I have that bloating. Even though I don't have vomiting or severe diarrhea, this gut brain thing is is brutal, and I can tell the gut issues are directly affecting my neuropsychiatric symptoms. On the tapering front, I made a total cut of 3.73% this month, with my most recent cut of 1.73% on the 16th. The first four days were fine, but days seven and eight were an absolute nightmare. I woke up completely out of my body and didn't think I'd make it out of my room. Today is day nine, and I think I am finally past the peak of the withdrawal. I plan to hold my current dose for the rest of the month to let my body stabilize before I even think about tapering again. I was hoping to see some stability with the lower dose, but my central nervous system is still going crazy. I'm dealing with a few bizarre physical symptoms and would love to know if anyone recognizes them as withdrawal. First, I have intense, localized itching in a specific spot on my back and groin that keeps returning. Second, I'm experiencing a throbbing, heartbeat-like pain in my lower molars and surrounding gums, but only after eating my main meal at lunch. It persists into the night but is completely gone when I wake up, leaving me confused if it's withdrawal-related or a real dental issue. My sleep is also strange I'm getting five to seven hours, but it's completely unrefreshing. I never actually feel sleepy just close my eyes, time disappears, and I wake up groggy. The neuropsychiatric symptoms are by far the hardest to endure right now. I am experiencing severe anhedonia, OCD, Jamais Vu, and derealization that makes me feel like I’m stuck inside a video game altered perception altered thinking even in my dreams. My brain feels completely hollowed out and hopeless. At times, my thoughts get trapped in terrifying loops a simple YouTube video triggered a visceral feeling that I was trapped in a war zone. I've also forgotten how to simply rest. If I try lying in a dark room to calm my nervous system, I get hit with severe panic and existential dread, questioning basic concepts like what resting even means. I only feel slightly grounded once I turn the lights back on. Finally, my reaction to my daily dose feels almost paradoxical. About 40 minutes after taking it, I get a brief window of calm, followed immediately by racing thoughts, facial paresthesia, and a wired feeling, like I drank too much caffeine. Despite this, I eventually manage to pass out. I know there are many other symptoms I haven't listed, but I just want to know if these all sound like standard withdrawals. Hopefully, by next week's update, I'll be somehwat stabilized from this month's cut.
WEEKLY SUMMARY — September 12, 2026 – September 18, 2026 DOSAGE TIMING - Clonazepam Dose Time(s): [Consistent ~11:00 PM – 12:00 AM window [minor delays due to evening events]] NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE - Weekly Breakdown: [Wave (100%)] DIET & INGESTION - Dietary Pattern: [100% Low-FODMAP compliance across 7 days [consistent post-meal bloating and sluggish gut motility]] SUPPLEMENTS & OTHER MEDICATIONS - Weekly Intake: [None taken across all 7 days] ACTIVITY & INTERVENTIONS - Weekly Activity & Events: [100% indoor home rest / video games / online GP consultation / indoor movement drills] INSOMNIA TRACKER - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [4.6] [Non-restorative drugged sleep; ~5.5–6 hours average duration; prolonged latency] NEUROPSYCHIATRIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.7] [Persistent OCD loops, Jamais vu, foreign consciousness, and fear of psychosis] PHYSICAL & AUTONOMIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [7.6] [Post-prandial gut bloating, rigid numb neck guarding, and localized upper back/groin itching] COGNITIVE & DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.2] [Complete 24/7 and past-life memory blackout; functional procedural autopilot during communicate or playing games or chatting] SENSORY SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.8] [Profound inner/outer body numbness, somatic depersonalization, and sensory gating failures] Hey everyone, long message today if reading this hope you are all doing well . It's been a wild week, but I was thinking about doing a monthly symptom description update. There are so many symptoms going on right now, and sometimes it all just blends into one confusing baseline, so I want to note everything down to track it. Starting with my neuropsychiatric symptoms, I am dealing with altered thinking where it feels like someone else is controlling my thoughts, alongside a foreign consciousness where the world looks completely fake and cold. I also have visual tracking issues in the mirror, disconnected hearing and smell, a spatialrendering form of agoraphobia, OCD, jamais vu, and severe phobias of psychosis. Moving to physical and autonomic symptoms, I have profound somatic depersonalization where my outer body feels numb and dead to the touch, and my pain response is blunted. Internally, I am completely dissociated from my organs I cannot feel my heartbeat, stomach, lungs, or brain. I experience sensory gating issues for example, if I lie down for too long, I sometimes forget to move, or if I am working with my arms on keyboadx, I will just leave resting marks on them. I also have generalized itching and slow blood flow. A couple of months ago, a phlebotomist was trying to get blood from me; first it came, then it shut down, so they poked me again, it came, and then it shut down again. My gut health is dominated by severe, balloon-like bloating that sometimes restricts my breathing. It feels like my gut doesn't work and is completely altered. It doesn't move at all and feels shut down because it cannot expand like a balloon anymore. Cognitively, I cannot vividly recall my past life or the last 24 hours, often feeling like I am confabulating memories, and facing delays where my brain doesn't register what my eyes are looking at. Yet, at the same time, I am able to communicate over the phone, talk to my friends using chat, talk to my parents sometimes, play video games, and even talk over it on the phone. It is just super contradicting. Are all these withdrawals/drug-related symptoms? Beyond the symptoms, I have made some observations throughout the week. I ate a carb-heavy meal with rice and surprisingly got 7.5 hours of sleep, and my neuropsychiatric symptoms initially went down. However, just like my historical pattern, I crashed hard shortly after. Knowing that continuing a high-carb diet makes me spiral, I quickly went back to my low-FODMAP diet for the last three days to find my very erratic baseline again. I also realized something about my caffeine (instant coffee) use back in 2025. I was taking my benzo and caffeine together, but after quitting caffeine completely, my baseline shifted and it never went back to how it felt like it was on caffeine. Is there a relationship between the benzo and the caffeine itself? I was wondering what if, when I was taking caffeine and on the benzo, maybe the caffeine was making the baseline a bit better because I felt a bit awake, I don't know. But then quitting it is now showing me what the drug effects actually look like. If so, slowly tapering should eventually clear the drug and allow the withdrawal to heal. If anyone has thoughts on this, please share. I also consistently notice my symptoms spiking in the evenings. Additionally, I had a brief memory window this week. After taking my dose, I got flashes of memories not perfectly vivid, but enough of an experience that I felt like crying, after which I was able to close my eyes and fall asleep. Regarding my recent doctor's appointment, things went reasonably well. My doctor still suspects there is some inflammation going on due to my lab abnormalities, but she reassured me it isn't an emergency. She said we can safely wait three months without rushing into any procedures, which was a relief. She advised me to continue the low-FODMAP diet for another three months, though my Google searches say it should only be done for two to six weeks, and I've already been doing it for two months. Finally, I made a 1.73% reduction on September 16th, bringing my total monthly reduction to 3.73%. Let's see how things go. Hopefully, everything will go okay.
WEEKLY SUMMARY — September 5 – September 11, 2026 DOSAGE TIMING - Clonazepam Dose Time(s): [Consistent ~11:00 PM – 11:40 PM (±15-30 min window) with one late-dose exception at 12:20 AM on September 11]1 NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE - Weekly Breakdown: [Wave (71.4%), Mix/Wave (28.6%)]1 DIET & INGESTION - Dietary Pattern: [~86% strict low-FODMAP compliance across 7 days [1 major late-night spiced yellow rice, beef, potatoes, and prebiotic breach on September 11 triggering severe diaphragmatic pressure; raw cucumbers on September 7 caused mild bloating]]1 SUPPLEMENTS & OTHER MEDICATIONS - Weekly Intake: [None taken orally on 6/7 days [1 sachet of Fibo Fit prebiotic taken in water on September 11; no other meds]]1 ACTIVITY & INTERVENTIONS - Weekly Activity & Events: [100% indoor home rest due to agoraphobia [sedentary room cleaning, PC gaming, and YouTube utilized daily as cognitive distraction; 1 brief interaction with cousin playing FIFA on September 11; multiple power outage pacing episodes]]1 INSOMNIA TRACKER - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 4.96 [Avg sleep ~5.5–6 hours with prolonged 1–3 hour latency; sleep consistently felt "drugged," unrefreshing, and non-restorative with otherworldly nightmares]1 NEUROPSYCHIATRIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.45 [High baseline depersonalization/derealization, racing/alienated thoughts, foreign consciousness, OCD loops, and fear of psychosis; acute panic spikes frequently triggered by bowel movements and power outages]1 PHYSICAL & AUTONOMIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 7.46 [Persistent post-meal bloating/gut paralysis, severe rigid cement-like neck tension, and localized itching; left cervical lymph node swelling successfully subsided and almost completely healed]1 COGNITIVE & DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.07 [Profound 24/7 amnesia with complete loss of autobiographical and past life memory; operating entirely on autopilot/procedural memory; immediate recall and basic functioning remain intact]1 SENSORY SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): 8.34 [Severe global physical numbness and somatic depersonalization; muted internal/external body sensations and sensory gating issues leading to zero urge to move when lying down] Hey everyone. I am currently on day 11 of my 2% reduction. It has had its ups and downs, but it hasn't caused a full collapse. It mostly feels like my difficult baseline continuing. Sleep and sensory symptoms took a hit, but I am getting through the week better than I feared. The gut-brain connection remains very active. I consistently experience a surge of panic right before bowel movements, and higher carbohydrates tend to trigger heavy systemic brain fog and fatigue, even though a recent carb-heavy meal oddly coincided with longer sleep. I don't have acute GI red flags like bleeding or constant diarrhea, which makes it hard to tell how much of this is driven by gastrointestinal issues versus the taper itself. I have a virtual doctor's appointment scheduled for September 15th, and I am conflicted about how to proceed. Prior stool tests showed dysbiosis, undigested starches, and elevated white blood cells, though celiac testing was negative. My doctor wants to order an endoscopy, colonoscopy, and lactulose breath testing to look for SIBO, SIFO, and gut inflammation. Given how much nervous system dysregulation and tapering impact gut motility and sensitivity, I am unsure whether pursuing extensive GI workups right now is the right move or if it is better to stay the course with dietary management while tapering. I would appreciate hearing any perspectives on how others have approached GI testing and doctor visits during withdrawal. Also, I wanted to ask about itching. I have been experiencing persistent itching on my upper back and groin. A couple of months ago, I had a diagnosed skin fungal infection that cleared up with an antifungal cream, so I am not sure if this is that same infection resurfacing or if it could be a symptom of withdrawal
WEEKLY SUMMARY DOSAGE TIMING - Clonazepam Dose Time(s): [Consistent ~11:00 PM (11:00 PM–11:40 PM window)] NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE - Weekly Breakdown: [Wave (100%)] DIET & INGESTION - Dietary Pattern: [100% Low-FODMAP compliance across 7 days [Consistent mild post-meal bloating/gut-brain axis sensitivity]] SUPPLEMENTS & OTHER MEDICATIONS - Weekly Intake: [None taken across 7 days [Clinic visit: Tetanus vaccine received Aug 30]] ACTIVITY & INTERVENTIONS - Weekly Activity & Events: [100% indoor home rest / light chores / video gaming [1 exception: clinic visit for wound dressing/vaccine]] INSOMNIA TRACKER - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [4.64] [Avg latency 2-4 hrs; sleep duration 5-6 hrs; non-restorative "drugged" quality] NEUROPSYCHIATRIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.66] [Persistent existential distress, acute panic surges, fear of psychosis, identity/personality alienation] PHYSICAL & AUTONOMIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [7.64] [Persistent post-meal bloating, head pressure/pain, lymph node recovery, thermoregulation instability] COGNITIVE & DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.07] [Autopilot functioning, profound autobiographical memory loss, baseline derealization/depersonalization] SENSORY SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.54] [Severe somatic numbness/hypoesthesia, internal/external bodily disconnect, facial paresthesia] Hey guys, here is my weekly update. Earlier this week, I scraped my leg and got a tetanus shot just to be safe. For the first two days, I felt completely dead like a vegetable. I'm slowly returning to baseline now, but my memory is completely out of whack and I can barely recall recent days. I'm just surviving. On the 1st of this month, I made a 2% reduction. Yesterday was when things got really bad, specifically all happening right after I took my night dosage. The first hour after the dose was okay, but then my DPDR spiked to an 8.5, and I had severe nerve pain. I hit borderline emergency neuropsychiatric and sensory symptoms (9.5/10). I had extreme panic, racing thoughts, and had to pace just to cope. Oddly, while my brain felt in shock, I could actually feel my hands again. I assume this is all a severe reaction to the cut. I’m on day 50 of my strict diet but haven't reached my previous baseline yet. My plan is to hold this cut, stay home, avoid all supplements, and stick strictly to my routine. I'll update you next Friday, and will share how my upcoming September 15th appointment goes.
WEEKLY SUMMARY — August 22, 2026 – August 28, 2026 DOSAGE TIMING - Clonazepam Dose Time(s): [Consistent ~11:00 PM – 11:40 PM (±30-40 min window)] NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE - Weekly Breakdown: [Wave (100%)] DIET & INGESTION - Dietary Pattern: [100% Low-FODMAP compliance [consistent post-prandial bloating/GI sensitivity]] SUPPLEMENTS & OTHER MEDICATIONS - Weekly Intake: [None taken across all 7 days] ACTIVITY & INTERVENTIONS - Weekly Activity & Events: [100% indoor home rest / video games [exceptions: interaction with Wi-Fi technicians and physical injury/scratch on August 28]] INSOMNIA TRACKER - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [4.0] [6–7 hrs duration; ~1–2 hr latency; unrefreshing/drugged sleep quality with nightmare/panic intrusions] NEUROPSYCHIATRIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.6] [High-intensity distress; frequent panic spikes, existential dread, identity/personality alienation, and paranoia during blackout/stress] PHYSICAL & AUTONOMIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [7.6] [Persistent abdominal bloating/distension, diaphoresis/sweating, orthostatic instability, and resolving lymph node swelling] COGNITIVE & DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.3] [Severe DP/DR, continuous autopilot functioning, and profound 24/7 autobiographical memory disconnect] SENSORY SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.4] [Somatic de-afferentation, facial paresthesia, sensory overstimulation spikes, and localized burning sensations] Hey everyone. I wanted to share a weekly update and get some perspective from the group. Earlier today, a broken wooden drawer chest scraped my ankle while I was moving it for visiting technicians. Because of severe DPDR, I had a massive lag in registering the injury until I saw bloodwe cleaned and taped it, and the burning has mostly died down. However, the sensory disconnect and having people in my room triggered severe agoraphobia and a brutal OCD spiral of racing, irrational thoughts (like wondering if an animal bit me indoors). Health-wise, the fever from two weeks ago is gone, though my left lymph node remains slightly swollen and mildly sensitive to the touch (right side is normal). On the health side, I’m around day 45 on Low-FODMAP. Past tests ruled out IBD/Celiac, but my stool tests showed mucus, white blood cells, inflammation, and dysbiosis, leading my doctor to suspect SIBO/SIFO. While the diet briefly helped after a rough 10-day transition, the recent fever flared things up again. Knowing Low-FODMAP isn't sustainable long-term and that dysautonomia frpm wd/benzos impair motility, I’m stuck on next steps. My doctor ordered an endoscopy and colonoscopy for September 15th. I can decline them, but I’m torn between the fear of missing a structural issue and the dread of putting my severe agoraphobia and sensitized nervous system through invasive procedures. How can scopes be handled during BIND? I’ve been holding for 4 months with a completely clean regimen, yet I feel noticeably worse than in month one. I noticed this exact same trend back in 2025 during a 6month hold where I progressively deteriorated from month 1 to month 6. But when I taper, I also feel worse, so I honestly don't know where to go from here or why holding keeps failing me. On top of that, since April 2025, my nightly dose has become completely unpredictable some nights it causes paradoxical stimulation, facial paresthesia, and racing thoughts before sleep; other nights, when I’m exhausted and in fear or feel like ill go crazy, it calms me down. To give context on my baseline, my daily symptoms are severely altered across every domain. I feel like a hollow zombie my thoughts and personality feel completely alien/unfamiliar, genuine emotions are absent ( I mask/pretend them around family), and I deal with severe OCD. , I have neartotal internal and external numbness I can’t feel my organs, heartbeat, or digestion, nor can I feel my teeth, face, or outer body, often lying in awkward positions for hours without sensory signals to shift. Cognitively, I have no past life recall or continuous 24/7 memory tracking, running purely on automated autopilot to do basic indoor tasks (gaming, eating, talking) while housebound from agoraphobia. How do you define stability at this point, and should I keep holding or resume tapering? thank you if you are reading this
WEEKLY SUMMARY — August 15 – August 21, 2026 DOSAGE TIMING - Clonazepam Dose Time(s): [Consistent ~11:00 PM nightly (±15 min window)] NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE - Weekly Breakdown: [Wave (100%)] DIET & INGESTION - Dietary Pattern: [Consistent Low-FODMAP compliance across 7 days [1 day non-strict lunch exception for recovery]] SUPPLEMENTS & OTHER MEDICATIONS - Weekly Intake: [Fibrofit prebiotic/inulin taken 2/7 days; otherwise none taken] ACTIVITY & INTERVENTIONS - Weekly Activity & Events: [100% indoor home rest / games and \screen time [1 exception: household repairs/technician disruption on Thursday]] INSOMNIA TRACKER - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [4.2] [Avg 6-7 hours total duration; 2-3 hour sleep latency; fragmented, unrefreshing "drugged" quality] NEUROPSYCHIATRIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.5] [Persistent high-baseline agitation; recurring panic spikes linked to sensory shifts and health anxiety; lingering post-fever instability] PHYSICAL & AUTONOMIC SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [7.7] [Post-fever autonomic recovery; persistent left submandibular/neck lymph node swelling; intermittent diaphoresis; variable GI bloating] COGNITIVE & DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.5] [High baseline DP/DR; significant short-term memory impairment; intrusive past-life recall; feeling of identity detachment] SENSORY SYMPTOMS - Weekly Average Score (1-10): [8.1] [Elevated hypersensitivity; frequent post-dose facial paresthesia; situational spikes during panic episodes] Hey , quick update. On August 6th, my jaw and neck lymph nodes swelled up, and a fever hit on the 13th with intense brain fog and symptom flares. The fever finally broke with heavy sweating, and today my temperature is back to normal and the fog has lifted a lot. My right lymph node is completely back to normal. The left one is still swollen, but there is zero pain when I touch it. Has anyone had a lymph node take an extra week or two to fully shrink back down after a virus? I'm planning to just wait it out and rest at home to avoid a stressful clinic trip. I'm continuing to strictly hold my dose, stay on my low-FODMAP diet, and rest up. I’d love to hear your thoughts, and I'll update again next Friday. Wishing everyone well
7-Day Symptom Averages (1–10 Scale): Insomnia Tracker: 4.0 Neuropsychiatric Symptoms: 8.6 Physical & Autonomic Symptoms: 7.6 Cognitive & Dissociative Symptoms: 8.4 Sensory Symptoms: 8.1 Weekly Key Notes: Medical Excursion (August 8): A high-stress outing for medical testing triggered severe panic and derealization spikes, reaching 10/10 severity. Infection/Sickness (August 14): An acute episode occurred featuring a low-grade fever (~100°F), chills, and lymph node pain, which significantly disrupted sleep. Nervous System State: The system remained in a sustained Wave state throughout the week, characterized by paradoxical post dose reactions, existential loops, and severe nocturnal challenges. Diet: Strict low-FODMAP adherence was maintained most of the week, with the exception of a high fodmap lunch on August 14th which coincided with increased fatigue ( was too sick to cook ) Interventions: Topical antifungal treatment was used daily from August 11–14 for the skin fungal issue ; prebiotic powder was taken on August 14th. Hey all, I’m looking for some advice on what to do. Over the last few days, I had mild tenderness under my jaw and upper neck that suddenly turned severe yesterday, radiating to the back of my head. Last night, my temperature hit 100°F with intense teethchattering chills crushing headache, severe DPDR, and vertigo so bad I literally couldn't walk or stand without holding onto walls and sips of water felt like i was bout to vomit. Bymorning, the fever broke with heavy sweating, and the dizziness improved enough that I was able to walk between rooms and eat. However, this evening my temperature has started creeping up again with flushing and sweating, and the lymph node pain and headache are still lingering. can it be viral if so i imagine it get better on its own. should i just rest at home or get it checked? I'm terrified of taking any meds or being prescribed antibiotics like fluoroquinolones with my sensitized nervous system, so I'm really unsure of the best next step.
Weekly Averages Insomnia Score: 4.0/10 Neuropsychiatric Symptoms: 8.1/10 Physical & Autonomic Symptoms: 7.1/10 Cognitive & Dissociative Symptoms: 8.1/10 Sensory Symptoms: 8.1/10 Weekly Overview Dosage Timing: Maintained a stable schedule at 11:00 PM, with a minor planned shift to 11:10 PM on Aug 4. Nervous System State: Predominantly Mix/Hybrid or Wave, fully transitioning into a Wave state by midto-late week. Meds/Supplements: Pancreatin enzymes 325 mg (Aug 2 & Aug 4) and topical antifungal lotion (Aug 5); otherwise medication-free. Tried enzymes, but they did not help, so I am discontinuing them to avoid further disruption. Activity/Interventions: Kept a consistent homebound, lowactivity routine centered on rest and some games. Had one 20-minute outdoor excursion on Aug 7 for a haircut. Daily Log Notes Aug 1: Sudden onset of right-ear hearing loss while gaming. Aug 3: New onset of post-meal nausea/vomiting urge; experienced a mini panic attack. Aug 4: Evening overstimulation triggered a panic attack (9/10); acute back/nerve spasms required analgesic posturing. Aug 5: Severe panic attack (10/10) with feelings of hypoxia and seizure-like physical sensations. Aug 6: Brief, transient moment of cognitive clarity in the morning. Aug 7: Outdoor haircut trip triggered severe depersonalization, a crushing headache, and akathisia-like sensations. It has been about 23 days on the lowFODMAP diet, and I can definitely say it feels somewhat better than a standard dietStill, my suspicions about my gut issues l never go away. It was a rough week, so I plan to keep everything stable heading into next week. As noted above, I tried enzymes for two days and stoppedmoving forward, I’m keeping interventions completely blank. Today was especially wild with the haircut trip. I’ll keep updating here weekly to track my progress over time. If anyone reading this has thoughts on what I could improve, I’d love to hear them. As for this month, I will likely hold my current baseline. I still don't understand why I am reacting every single dayespecially the nightly post-dose reactions involving stimulation, a weird facial sensation, passing out for hours, and then waking up. One major updat , ,, tomorrow I am visiting the doctor after being referred for a slightly elevated T4 level. I’ll see what they say before making any decisions, as thyroid dynamics are new to me. Hoping for the best
🗓️ DAILY BIND LOG CURRENT DOSE & TIMING: Clonazepam suspension @ 11:00 PM (See signature for overall reduction history) NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE: Baseline / Mixed (Baseline slightly heavier today at 8.5/10 neuro) DIET & INGESTION: Low-FODMAP Day 16 OTHER MEDS / SUPPLEMENTS TAKEN TODAY: None 📊 SYMPTOM BREAKDOWN & SEVERITY (1-10 Scale) 1. Sensory Symptoms: 7/10 Details. &NotableObservations:Heightened sensory sensitivity managed throughout the day. 2. Physical & Autonomic Symptoms:7/10 Details & Notable Observations:Physical tension and autonomic load. 3. Neuropsychiatric Symptoms: 8.5/10 Details & Notable Observations:Baseline felt a bit worse than yesterday; heightened stress from medical appointments, lab discussions, and navigating symptoms. 4. Cognitive & Dissociative Symptoms:8/10 Details & Notable Observations: Brain fog and heavy cognitive processing load. 5. Insomnia & Sleep Quality:3/10 Details & Notable Observations: Slept 6–7 hours with better quality than previous days. Today had a lot going on, had an online doctor's appointment where my mom spoke to review my health checkup and lab results everything was normal except for some mucus and white blood cells in my stool, elevated CRP and ESR inflammation markers, and a high T4 thyroid level and she said I need to check-up w an endocrinologist, plus a few more tests lined up like breath tests, a colonoscopy, an endoscopy, and vitamin panels. I am not sure about all that, should I skip it I heard inflammation markers can be high in withdrawals.But not really sure about the thyroid. Sticking to Day 16 of the lowFODMAP diet has definitely helped keep things from hitting a 10/10 panic attack like my regular diet used to, even though my neuropsychiatric baseline felt a bit heavier today. Because daily updates can be tough, moving forward I plan to track everything daily in Google Docs/Sheets. end of the week every Friday I'll make posts using that data to track my progress let's see.
🗓️ DAILY LOG - July 30, 2026 CURRENT DOSE & TIMING: Clonazepam @ 11:00 PM (See signature for overall reduction history) NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE: Mixed (Wave and Baseline) 🥗 DIET & INGESTION: Strict Low-FODMAP today. 💊 OTHER MEDS / SUPPLEMENTS TAKEN TODAY: None. 📊 SYMPTOM BREAKDOWN & SEVERITY (1-10 Scale) Sensory Symptoms: 8/10 Details & Notable Observations: Woke up with a pinched nerve sensation in the hand; couldn't move pinky and index fingers initially, but the connection and movement returned after a short wait. Physical & Autonomic Symptoms: 7/10 Details & Notable Observations: "Messed up" feeling in the gut and neck. Neuropsychiatric Symptoms: 8.5/10 Details & Notable Observations: Heavy derealization and depersonalization, . Experienced existential dread Had a 7/10 panic attack in the afternoon. Note: Last night's Clonazepam dose caused unexpected stimulation, racing thoughts, and dry eyes (similar to caffeine) before eventually passing out. Cognitive & Dissociative Symptoms: 8/10 Details & Notable Observations: Consistent throughout the day, feeling heavily dissociated. Insomnia & Sleep Quality: 5/10 Details & Notable Observations: Got roughly 5 to 6 hours of sleep. Not quite as good as the previous night, but functional. Maybe I will reach a lower baseline soon let's see. next update tomorrow
🗓️ DAILY LOG - July 29, 2026 CURRENT DOSE & TIMING: Clonazepam 0.831 mg @ 11:00 PM (See signature for overall reduction history) NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE: Mixed (Wave and Baseline) 🥗 DIET & INGESTION: Low-FODMAP diet continued throughout the entire day. 💊 OTHER MEDS / SUPPLEMENTS TAKEN TODAY: None. 📊 SYMPTOM BREAKDOWN & SEVERITY (1-10 Scale) Sensory Symptoms: 8/10 Details & Notable Observations: Stayed home all day, and just let time pass. Physical & Autonomic Symptoms: 7/10 Details & Notable Observations: In the evening, experienced urges to move fingers and toes for about 1 hour. but the urges passed. Neuropsychiatric Symptoms: 8/10 Details & Notable Observations: Woke up from a severe nightmare feeling a sense of psychosis (severity briefly hit 10/10 upon waking). Calmed down after processing and stabilized at an 8/10 for the rest of the day. Cognitive & Dissociative Symptoms: 8/10 Details & Notable Observations: Consistently bad as always; no major changes noted from the morning baseline. Insomnia & Sleep Quality: 3/10 Details & Notable Observations: Got 6-7 hours of sleep last night. Not very restorative due to the nightmare right before waking, but severity of insomnia remains lower This seems like a good way to log using gem. Hopefully one day I can throw all this away next update tomorrow
💊 CURRENT DOSE: Clonazepam at 10:45 PM (more details in signature) NERVOUS SYSTEM STATE: Wave ⚙️ ROUTINE Diet: Low-FODMAP NEW VARIABLES Meds/Supplements Taken: None taken today. SYMPTOMS Neuropsychiatric: [8/10] Physical & Autonomic: [7.5/10] Sensory: [8.5/10]. insomnia: [5/10] next update tomorrow
Hello everyone. It’s been a while since I last posted. I’ve been pretty sick, and everything recently has felt like a massive blur. Starting today, I’m planning to log my progress here daily every morning. To make this manageable with severe memory issues, my plan is to write short notes 3 times throughout the day in my Notes app. The following morning, I’ll post a summary hereincluding what I ate, if I had to go out, any supplements I took, and my daily dose. Dail I’ll organize my symptoms into four categories and give the overall day a score from 1 to 10 to make tracking easier Neuropsychiatric Physical & Autonomic Sensory Sleep (I’ll also do a deeper writeup of specific symptoms once a week or every so often.) Current Daily Routine Diet Low-FODMAP diet Dosing Daily dose taken at 11:00 PM nightly rest of the day survive Also, I’ve been tracking my reaction right after dosing to figure out if it’s having a paradoxical effect. After taking my dose, my state shifts into a confusing mix of stimulation, stumbling, blankness, racing thoughts, and panic. Surprisingly, I still manage to sleep (getting about 4 to6 hours of heavydrugged"\ sleep). Because I still sleep, I’m not entirely sure if this reaction counts as paradoxical or just severe excitation. Current Symptoms basically extremely destabilized NeuropsychSevere brain fog, OCD, jamais vu, feeling like my personality has changed, anhedonia, dissociative amnesia, trouble processing reality (everything feels altered), feeling unable to process or fear of going outside, inability to rest. Agitation, inner restlessness, panic attacks, mildsevere anxiety. Physical & Autonomic Skin issues, blunted bodily sensations (eyes, nose, organs feel numb/blunted to pain), GI issues (shifted from feeling paralyzed to painful bloating and altered stools).Sleep Insomnia drugged sleep 4 to 6 hours As for the diet update: First couple of days i had panic attacks when i had bowel movements, today i felt moments where my body felt like old me, not too sure regardless will stick to it atl east for a month. Thank you all for being here. Hope everyone is hanging in there. and also do let me know about the drug reactions i held last months pretty much and no better but i do see diet playing a part
Quick update on labs The completely normal tests are my kidneys, liver function and enzymes, my pancreas, and my full blood counts. My vitamins B12, B6, E, iron, and D are also fully normal and sufficient, along with my thyroid panel, electrolytes, celiac screen, and a clear urine. Some stuff that aren't normal are insulin resistance (not diabetes), elevated inflammation markers, and mildly high folate. My abdominal ultrasound also shows a Grade II fatty liver and a 1.40 cm gallstone. As for my symptoms and how I am feeling, things are incredibly severe right now. I am dealing with diplopia, heavy DPDR, severe OCD, jamais vu, dissociative amnesia, insomnia, profound personality changes, severe agoraphobia, and a hard time processing the outside world. I have altered consciousness, weight gain, and intense brain fog. My eyes, nose, ears, taste, hunger, and thirst signals feel completely muted. There is a fulbody numbness where I sometimes cannot even feel pain, and I wake up with temporary paralysis where my hands cannot move for a couple of minutes. I have total anhedonia, insight blindness, and feel like a completely different person. I cannot feel my gut, and I cannot feel my brain. My heartbeat, breathing, and digestion all feel like they are on autopilot or I feel like I am in autopilot. When panic hits, it feels like I am suffocating inside my own body, along with dizziness when standing and vivid dreams with altered reality., I think the lowFODMAP diet was stabilizing me in March and April, but I'm not sure. I crashed hard after a diet switch, which triggered sudden severe panic attacks at a shop, and now I am stuck inside with severe agoraphobia. My baseline is getting worse and worse daily. I am still using my milk suspension, but I react erratically everysingleday ; taking my dose leaves me feeling intensely overstimulated and sometimes nothing. I held my dose for 6 months last year after the massive shock, but I took a lot of supplements (oandoff B12, heavy thiamine, and colostrum) and just got worse. I quit all supplements in February and have taken nothing else since thenonly my nightly Klonopin. I tried holding another month now, but there is no relief, just getting worse and worse daily. I am not sure if my reaction is paradoxical or not, because all of a sudden it's morning and I somehow still sleep. My gastro suspects SIBO/SIFO is causing these massive digestive issues and food reactions. I am completely lost on what to do with my dosage, diet, or overall schedule to get stable. 24/7 void without knowing what I do, and I don't know how I am existing. Please let me know what I should do to build a routine to stabilize. Thanks for reading 💚💚
insomnia,ocd,jamais VU,personality change,anhedonia,brain fog,dissociative amnesia, Fear of going outside or processing outiside,Agitation,inner restlessness, Mild anxiety, Cannot feel my body heartbeat digestion brain respoonse or anything DP/DR, unable to rest, diplopia, diziness, rashesh ( non withdrawal treating it with topical antifungal cream), food reactions, insight blindness many others forgott to mention simply very unstable. ( this month is gonna be body check up will keep updated)
Hey everyone, I wanted to drop a quick update on where my symptoms are currently at and my plan moving forward. Severe DPDR , Jamais Vu, Experiencing an extreme, crazy level of altered reality. Everything feels alien Jamais vu, and I am dealing with constant OCD loops. Dissociative Amnesia , Insight Blindness, I spend my days and evenings completely on autopilot. I honestly do not know how my brain is operating right now with virtually no working memory or conscious awareness of the time passing. Profound Brain Fog, The cognitive lag is incredibly heavy. Physical Sensory stuff, Sensory Blunting Anesthesia: I li cannot "feel" my body, though my pain receptors still work. I cannot feel my eyes, ears, or sense of smell. Even my original baseline tinnitus seems completely gone, likely masked by the drug. My skin feels extremely fragile. The slightest pressure, like just leaning my arm against a table, instantly leaves marks.Coin Shaped Rashes developed localized, coin shaped rashes on my skin.My gastrointestinal tract feels completely paralyzed and stagnant with barely any motility. Insomnia I am checking in with a dermatologist this week to get their opinion on the coinshaped rashes. I will update you all on what they say, I will not take any prescribed oral medications for it without doing my own thinggg I am running a comprehensive set of lab tests this month and next month. Hoping everything comes back clean and healthy.
interoception dissociation ( cant feel my eyes,ears,nose,teeth,no heartbeat,digestion sound etc) , Dissociative amnesia (cant recall my past life as well as 24/7 memory on autopilot) Gi feels paralyzed, Insomnia, Personality changes, Insight blindness, muscle guarding, insane cognitive fog , lower tear productions, emotional blunting, Jaimais VU, OCD,irritability Essentially the same symptoms if anyone reading this I have a question regarding my eyes. I cannot really feel them they are very numb and it feels like my tear production reduced is it normal I don't need any products right?
interoception dissociation ( cant feel my eyes,ears,nose,teeth,no heartbeat,digestion sound etc) , Dissociative amnesia (cant recall my past life as well as 24/7 memory on autopilot) Gi feels paralyzed, Insomnia, Personality changes, Insight blindness, muscle guarding, insane cognitive fog , lower tear productions, emotional blunting, Jaimais VU, OCD,irritability. ( if anyone reading this can i use this as my main tracking website daily like daily might be 365 logs a year and its a simple way to track dosages imho).
interoception dissociation ( cant feel my eyes,ears,nose,teeth,no heartbeat,digestion sound etc) , Dissociative amnesia (cant recall my past life as well as 24/7 memory on autopilot) Gi feels paralyzed, Insomnia, Personality changes, Insight blindness, muscle guarding, insane cognitive fog , lower tear productions, emotional blunting, Jaimais VU, OCD,irritability.