46th Effexor Update - Feeling Okay

Long time no see! I was struggling and in a lot of stress for Gigs, Bandbreakups, yearning for performance, also had some days of very bad sleep again, so i decided to taper up about 1 bead. It‘s interesting how strong this effect was for a few days. Like 3 Phases at the first day: At first relieve and a light uphigh, then agitation and walking around a lot, in the evening it felt stabilized. The next few days sometimes a little rollercoaster, also a day of anxiety and now 2 weeks later i‘m not sure if i have any benefit. But there were indeed some days of good sleep, however, also problems falling asleep, sometimes having strange dreams related to withdrawl symptoms. Also i felt a little ashamed for tapering up but i pretty sure needed the experience, also to acknowledge that there was no real benefit. Tomorrow i’ll taper off that bead again. The taper journey is a hell of a ride. Thinking about how healthy and well i was before these meds makes me mourning. So the journey continues, one bead at a time.