45th Effexor Update - Feeling Poor

Only 4,5h sleep on the day of the gig,was very tired. But 7.5h sleep last night. The gig was strange. In a multimillion Villa inhabiting young students. I saw a lot of soulless antidepressant faces looking in the void. Lot‘s of girls with heavy cutted arms. Bunch of lonely femboys. Tall streetguys with throattattoos came after the gig for their brazillien student girlfriends that organized the gig. And most people left early. I once was way more understanding of different lifestyles but most of the young people looked sad and lost and i felt i clearly did not fit there. If feel sad for current state of going-to-be academics in social studies. Maybe i‘m grumpy and overreacting, have gotten too old and just don‘t understand it, but nothing did fit there 😄 Was glad to leave soon. Today i‘m feeling depressed, have worked in the garden but laying in bed now. Try to play some Saxophone later and thinking of how get forward with this life. Or maybe better distracting myself today. Can‘t think about tapering at the moment. Have a nice Sunday!